HOLDING ON TO LIFE

Beneath the blue sky, at dusk advent of sudden romance occurs. A soothing breeze starts to emerge from an origin mysteriously unknown. A sudden lathargic yet desired abeyance at this moment beautifies the tunnel of timeline. The greenery, the trees, the plants, the myriad flowers all synchronised at this moment by the caressing touch of the benevolent wind. This amazing romance between the breeze and the trees, a lovely sight of nature at work is open to all, yet this magic is seen and felt by the blessed few. The chirping birds, the setting sun and the faded moon slowly ascending in the sky, flashing its brightness soon to be high are witness to this ecstacy.

The whole scenario at par with some cosmic event makes me believe that some nature's creations are meant to cross paths on a regular basis, some connections ought to be a spiritual tasks (life is so incomplete without them). If someone makes a sincere endeavour to explore the mystery behind all this happening, the reason will never be found, but a relay of a bunch of sweet memories will definitely be revealed to come alive.

The unforgettable memories in a corner of the heart or a corner of the heart without them, the little child holding on to the heart beat with some hope and some fear of loosing the hope. Holding on to life.

KHUD PE NAHI KHUDA PE YAKEEN HO

Kuch to kami ho iss kambakht zindagi mein, Ki khud pe nahi khuda pe yakeen ho,

Kabhi mobile ki battery khatm, kabhi charger gum ho,

Kabhi gaadi me petrol khatm, kabhi gaadi khud band ho,

Megha barse ankhiyon se aise, ki palkein bilkul namm ho,

Paagalpan aisa ki Dekhen jo kissi ko, samjhein ki bas tum ho,

Bhagwaan kare ki agle janam mein, hum tum aur tum hum ho.

THE LOUD SECRET OPEN TO CLOUDS

1. You are a lovely secret very well kept, buried deep inside my heart, yet you are the heightened wave of emotion which I sing to glory in front of all.

2. You make me smile like an idiot, the same you... makes me cry like a fool, clear & confused the feeling so enchanting yet so subdued  (precious saved from this world).

3. I wish i could tell you all that you make me feel, I wish you could see how you have captured my heart & soul, living you instead of life has become my only goal.

4. Like a lost child in a crowded place, i look for your mere presence to  seek some solace, just stay the way you are so that i loose myself in your embrace.

   

"DARKEST PLACE FOR SEEKING SOLACE ON THIS EARTH."

The character of my story, the one who temporarily got happy could not get away from the curse of his destiny for long and now he is desperately looking for the darkest corner to hide from the hit. Seeking solace from one's own mind, own thoughts, from self is so very difficult. 

We as humans live all emotions in this living world as it is meant to be like that. 

We love, we hate, we get angry, we get sad, however only few lucky ones get to express all that they feel about & to the ones they love or hate. There are a few unlucky & cursed ones, who do not even get to express themselves. My character is too busy brooding in his own world. The habit to have multiple chains of conversations with own mind can be lethal. He expressed, but to himself and not to the ones he loved or hated due to the fear. Fear of rejection & fear of acceptance which are so scary like a freaking monster ready to engulf you to hell. My character did express some years back in time. The expression was beautiful and is stated below.

"1. You are a lovely secret very well kept, buried deep inside my heart, yet you are the heightened wave of emotion which I sing to glory in front of all.

2. You make me smile like an idiot, the same you... makes me cry like a fool, clear & confused the feeling so enchanting yet so subdued (precious saved from this world).

3. I wish i could tell you all that you make me feel, I wish you could see how you have captured my heart & soul, living you instead of life has become my only goal.

4. I know you like someone else, you don't like me. I will quit my obsession for you, i will fake all my conversations with you. Start talking to me, i swear I'll find someone else similar to you, so that you don't stop talking to me anymore. I am seeking you from the divine for another lifetime on this earth and if possible do come back in this lifetime.

Faking your thoughts, actual feelings, emotions, excitement for long years can lead to anxiety and ultimately leads to depression or chronic illnesses.There is no solution to such a grave situation, the misery is so much fun to live that you actually get muddled as to weather you are ina happy state, sad state or some out of the world state of nirvana seeking you as a chosen one. Lolzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. 

So the guy in the story decides to put it out.

ALL CREATION CONTAINS POISON- THE ESSENCE OF BLISSFUL END

Lord Shiva the creator consumed poison for sustaining life on this earth. Poison is an integral part of this universe which has to find a place to dissolve, to settle down. It reverberates through the senses deep inside from the tiniest particle to the whole some being "the identity". The mystery of life & death can be deciphered from the fact that, if the master of the universe has consumed poison, so how can the creation be without it. This portion of poison comes in a living being by virtue of birth on this earth & slowly dissolves within the living beings affecting the molecular formation, the cells, the blood, the muscles, the organs, the body & lastly the spirit. 

When it dissolves itself into the soul, the tiny consciousness which we have compared to the bigger unfathomable consciousness of the universe breaks, life processes end & the soul gets released from the bounds of its worldly illusions, mirror like "me" is dusted.

When we grow to adolescence, we grow with an ego not less than a mountain. This reflects not to the "me" but to the universe, the absolute & then the reflection treats your ego going ahead by making you realize that you do not control a fig on this earth & everything is moving as per a divine plan beyond human understanding. You are a small piece of dirt, full of filthy human emotions, illusions & weaknesses.The ego needs to be crushed to death again & again so that the self realization repeats itself for you to feel easy when the "poison" i referred above dissolves itself into you steadily.

In plain & simple words "Rest the soul & the body in true devotion of the mahadev (the supreme soul) as he is the only one who can handle poison, aur baaki kisi insaan ya farishte ki aukaad nahi iss zeher ko jhelne ki". 

"HAR HAR MAHADEV"

SELECTION ALTERED TO LIFE INSTEAD OF DEATH

He suddenly realized that he was breathing again and felt a fresh flow of energy gushing through his soul, revival is it?  The feeling was such as if he was drowning deep into the waters and suddenly a divine hand mysteriously pulled him out from those deadly fathoms of worst human emotions alive. When you get saved and come out alive from such a chaotic state of prolonged intoxication, you just feel the extreme divinity. The eternal bliss, ultimate truth, absolute awareness all were found at once vide the series of chemical reactions which shook his nerves. 

Such a state of bliss which was attained dramatically, cleared all the filth in the mind and instructed the brain to mend its selection towards life instead of death. 

MYSTERY IN COMMAND- LOST, FOUND, RETRIEVED & MAY BE AGAIN LOST....... TO BE FOUND

The mystery which was so commanding and powerful had been reintroduced. It created kind of teenage butterflies , but it also had the serenity to calm and sooth the soul. The mystery had the ability to reduce him to nothing in seconds, as well as complete him to everything within moments, make him behave like a nervous little child as well as a mature & thorough gentleman having the awareness of the universe, both at the same time. This state was similar to ripples created in water when a stone hits the water surface, wherein the madness is created and tranquility achieved within seconds, similar to a doped state, which can be achieved by weed as well as meditation, choice being yours. Just like the universe is getting created and destroyed by the supreme force in the same time and space again and again. Long standing and unforeseen confusion eventually felt like absolute clarity.

The magnitude of emotional attachment and divine love was such at the first place that he chose consuming a lifetime poison over the option of loosing his mystery. A parallel world was created with a person bearing virtual identity and the real one left untouched as pious as the god himself. Fear of loosing the best you aspire, makes you opt an alternative. Alternative is just life and the best is god and you seldom get to be with god. However, Thou shall reunite with either god or the soul who 

introduced the godly feeling of love not today, not tomorrow but someday in some time and space. Might be that you have shared a life with them earlier, that is why you feel elevated by a mere thought of them. The mystery is the only medicine to which ones body, mind and soul respond in the best ways, it feels so right. There must be some connection else how is it possible that out of millions of lives, you feel it for that one person exclusively. 

The mysterious matter stuck in the brain makes your day sparkle. You just don't have to beg to have a visual of the one, you just have to close your eyes and magic happens. Ever wondered what this magic is, ever wondered what this sensation is? He could not make out. Just like in science they say energy can neither be created nor be destroyed, in the same manner love cannot be created nor be destroyed, it can only be felt and you can ride the feeling helplessly with a let loose state of uncontrolled elevated spirits. 

The perfect sync of hearts which race together happily in deep love is an unbelievable phenomenon.Such state if reached can unlock tremendous energies and abilities in a person. 

The thoughts presented are the mere reflection of this state which is beyond the comprehension of conscious mind. So, he rests his arguments for now to enjoy his mystery which was lost , found, retrieved and may be again will be lost.

SEDATED TO BE IN FOOLS PARADISE - A STRANGE & MAGICAL CONFLICT BETWEEN ILLUSIONS, EMOTIONS & THE REALITY

Sometimes just feel like closing the eyes and living with peace, with the one who goes away but doesn't fade away, one who remains whatever may come, just like the pleasure of being drenched with the pure rain drops romancing with the earth. 

Can there be such a place, such world? 

Emotional illusions are like dangerous tides in a violent sea. They illuminate your senses, break the shackles, stimulate your adrenaline, make you feel on top of the world. The feeling is such that you ride the clouds in the sky. No hurries no worries, a serene atmosphere where you breathe at ease. The stress and the burden you carry suddenly feels light, as if it just vanished like a delicate leaf in a windy storm. Power of illusion my friend, it is the capability of our great mind at work. Such illusion when ordered by the heart to the head and commanded by the heart beats is what i am talking about. It is indeed dangerous i must say, but only when it is interrupted and the hallucinations disappear. When this mode is broken by the harsh, cruel and deceptive reality the whole system might go haywire and crash. 

Spirituality, love, friends, family, all of this universe is a layer of illusions. We are stuck in these layers with time quotient attached. The one who gave you this illustration of mind-boggling illusion for the first time in life makes you feel young, riding the sky over the clouds... Remember i mentioned earlier. The one who sparked this feeling never lets you grow old as you get stuck in that time with that person. To be with such a mystical person that you always aspired all the time in life is practically impossible. The spark which created the joyful fallacy sedates you into riding the wave back in time. So, just enjoy the ride into  the fools paradise which may never turn into a reality and you might look for an alternative, a prototype to sustain the balance of life.